Window Half Open (Slightly Off-Kilter)

[Verse 1] I ate cereal for dinner Scrolled my phone till my eyes got sore Found a sock from last December Haven’t cleaned up the bedroom floor Texted “sorry I’ve been busy” Truth is I just couldn’t move Watching dust dance in the sunlight Trying to remember what I’m trying to prove [Chorus] Some days I’m up Some days I’m nowhere Brain like a browser with a thousand tabs open in the air I’m not broken I’m just in repair So I’ll breathe in once Breathe out twice Call it progress when I step outside I’m not okay But I’m on my side (on my side, on my side) [Verse 2] Therapist says “name the feeling” I say “uh… it’s like static rain” Laugh at jokes that aren’t that funny Just to take the weight off my name Left a mug in every room now Little ghosts of the days I lost But I watered all my houseplants Tiny proof I can carry my own cross [Chorus] Some days I’m loud Some days I’m quiet Heart like a crowd and I can’t break up the riot I’m not broken I’m just gonna try it So I’ll breathe in once Breathe out slow Write my worries in a note Then let it go I’m not okay But I’m showing up though (showing up, showing up) [Bridge] If healing was a straight line I’d have finished long ago (hey) But it’s coffee stains and late nights Leaving parties early just to be alone So if I only did one small thing today That’s still a seed I planted anyway [Chorus] Some days I’m here Some days I’m hiding Mind takes the wheel and I’m just riding I’m not broken I’m just still deciding So I’ll breathe in once Breathe out twice Keep the window cracked to let in a little light I’m not okay But I’m still gonna fight (still gonna fight, still on my side)