Paper Cups by the Sink (Groove Intimate)

[Verse 1] Found three paper cups by the sink Each with a name I used to think was me One says “tired ” one says “fine” The last one’s blank Just watching from the side [Verse 2] Therapist says “notice your breath” I’m noticing dust on the ceiling instead Phone face down on the hardwood floor Group chat buzzing like a locked front door [Verse 3] I rehearse “I’m okay” in the mirror Mouth moves first Then the feelings follow later Pills in a tray like pastel moons I chase them down with tap water at noon [Verse 4] Mom keeps asking “are you eating enough?” I send her pictures of my coffee cup Scroll past lives that look well lit I save a meme Call it “proof I exist” [Verse 5] Inbox full of “you up?” from my past Old friends asking how I’m holding fast I type “long story Maybe sometime” Then stare at the ceiling for the thirty-third time [Verse 6] Weighted blanket Late night news They list disasters I add mine too Unanswered texts like unpaid bills Stacking higher on my window sill [Verse 7] Doctor writes notes in a language of codes F32 Like a secret Morse Says “take a walk Try to call a friend” I walk in circles Call myself again [Verse 8] Plants on the sill all lean to the light I turn them slowly so they grow upright Wonder if healing is dull like that Tiny degrees till you don’t look back [Verse 9] I keep a list titled “reasons to stay” Receipts Wristbands My sister’s bad plays The smell of toast My neighbor’s dog A three-second video of my dumb laugh log [Verse 10] Some days the shower feels like a chore I sit on the tile Let the water pour Pretend it’s washing the static away Watch it circle the drain But I still stay