Borrowed Umbrella Brain (Indie Pop-Rock)

[Verse 1] Woke up arguing With the ceiling fan again It spins like every thought I’ve had Since I was ten Coffee tastes like static Phone lights up I let it ring Read a text Then read it backwards Just to feel a different sting [Verse 2] Therapist plants a cactus Says "It thrives on getting less" I laugh a little too hard At desert plants and stress Mom sends hearts and weather Asks if I’m eating right I tell her ’bout the sunrise Skip the part I lost the night [Chorus] My head’s a crowded subway car at closing Doors stuck open Someone singing off-key I hold a borrowed umbrella brain Leaking straight down through my teeth I’m not okay in capital letters But I still water all my doubts like seeds Hoping one day these shaking hands Learn to grow me what I need [Bridge] There’s a bill on the fridge I decorate it with stars Answer “How are you?” politely Like I’m clocking in on Mars If healing’s just a hallway I’m the kid who roams the gym Sneakers squeak on every worry Till the echoes fade to him [Verse 3] I name each panic Tuesday So it feels like just a day Write it on a sticky note Then throw the note away Every scar I never earned Still shows up to take a bow I don’t know if I am better I just know that I am now